XD GOD!
Chat with Dad:
Leal Rodriguez: ok u know what else?
Leal Rodriguez: ok so andrew was like, leal you look especially christian today
Leal Rodriguez: and i was like wow that came out of no where
Leal Rodriguez: and he was like, its because ur obsessed with God
Leal Rodriguez: and i realized he was right.
Leal Rodriguez: kasi sa Theater Arts, topic ng research commission ko is medieval miracle plays (yes I wanted to do theater of religion. XD)
Dad: talaga?
Leal Rodriguez: Sa philo, i speak up during our God-related talks (though not as much as my friend Izza, the bruneian girl who is my best friend here. You say god and she will be all up on yuor ass. Yes Izza, I know you're reading this but you have to admit its the tuth XD)
Dad: wow naman
Leal Rodriguez: tapos sa TOK, god-related ang aking topic, about how we know God through written texts.
Dad: wooooooooooooooooooooow
Dad: siguro touched by god ka nga
Leal Rodriguez: Tapos sa english, puro sermon, essay of a priest and the comparison of how the books mocked god ang aking papers
Leal Rodriguez: thats 3 out of 4 papers that ive written about god!
Leal Rodriguez: hahaha
Dad: ang galing!
Leal Rodriguez: and mom was like, ur really on ur way to becoming an ex-nun
Dad: tita t will be so wowed
Leal Rodriguez: kasi i was telling her about how i hate philo now, and id rather major in theology when i go to college
Leal Rodriguez: hahaha
Leal Rodriguez: yes
Dad: hahaha!
Leal Rodriguez: philo is one of my worst subjets
Leal Rodriguez: ok no, its in teh bottom 3 out of 6
Dad: hahaha. ain't that so ironic. you're the most philosophical person i know
XD yes, I <3 God. He inspires me ;)
posted at [7:18 PM]
kenyon writing workshop
I got into The Your Writers Workshop in Kenyon COllege XD
2 weeks of fun in the sun, while writing. It's very chill. There are no grades. The campus looks amazing. And I CAN WRITE ALL I WANT! OMG!
And kahit teacher ko natuwa sa akin. She told my other classmate who i dont talk to at all, about how i got in. He congratulated me kasi its lifechanging daw. I'm so excited!
My dad had a dumaguete experience. I have this. But I will still try and get into Dumaguete. hehehe
how I got in: I wrote an essay, and sent it via their website. And then they snailmailed me my results. And akala ko sa email sasabihin if I got in or not, then i got worried akasi akala ko sa 15 sasabihin, pero di pa sinend ung email sa akinl. Then i made my mom call, and they told her i got i. And i was like yay!
And i got the package and letter telling me I got in the day after
!
And I will probably be going to the philippines right after I finish this program over the summer. Thats after July 8, kasi june 23-july 8 ang program.
i'm s excited!
posted at [7:05 PM]
The Sweetest THing
My dad is awesome.
Why?
because i wanted red eyeliner, right? And it was 3 bucks and i was like I WANT IT (i im-ed to my dad, for I felt like ranting ^^)
My dilemma was that I already ordered from HT, so i couldnt order anymore.My dad already got me sugar boots for my birthday so I couldnt ask him for it, not that I wanted to. I was just ranting.
But today I got a package from Hot Topic. Inside was the eyeliner i wanted!
And i was like awww!
Despite the distance, my dad made me feel awesome (more than usual anyway) And its not that I find comfort in material things, nasweetan lang ako kasi ginawa nya yun para sa akin.The thought definately counted.
I miss my dad!!! anD mY FAMILY(TITA TEACHIE!!!!! BONZ!!!!!)!!!!! AND THE PHILIPPINES!
ANd my friends, who will be graduating soon.
posted at [6:28 PM]
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Karins Party
I went to Karins party last friday (classmate, japanese, awesome art-emo kid who i <3)
(yes, i got better for that)
It snowed that day, really hard. (after being so nice and sunny the day before~!)
We (me, yasmine, zoe) went to Karins 8, meeting the resident druggies of our school on our way to the subway station (Dennis, Dhivin, ruben, Dio). We went to the party together as well. It was hailing too (being pelted with ice is not fun when ur in party clothes) and we had to trudge through 8 blocks of snow, in the projects (where we had the potential of being raped, but being with 4 men, especially dio the most *ehemgayehem* made that a bit less likely) to get to a ware-house looking building where the party was held called the FOUNDRy. It was actually a cool place inside and we did NOT get our organs chopped out!
The party itself was OK. I liked most of the music and I got dio to dance, again!
There were people not from my school, but there were alot of people having almost-sex it was disturbing. Plus alot of people were drunk and high so that made it a bt more unpleasant. And I wasnt drunk! so that made it even worse. (HAHAHAHAHA yes ganun nga kasama). ANd the people from the other schools (kasi Karin had it with her friend, who went to another shcool) were rude and nasty.
I'm glad my other friend Izza didnt go though. Why?
1) everyones everything got stolen
عزتي(yasmins money, MY COAT wtf i had to get someone elses coat) jennys designer bag, a nintendo ds, peoples SHOES, etc
2) people were practically having sex on the dance floor
3) ryan had a breakdown(again!), dio almost threw up because he was that drunk, nicole and adaeze left early
Finally, when I convinced zoe and yasmine to go home already (kasama ko sila kasi tehy were sleeping over) I couldnt find my coat. I had to wait for an hour for the party to end to see if namisplace lang, pero someone took it. ANd i had to settle for this other coat which looked like my coat(prolly naexchange sya). I got a nicer coat through my loss, but I also lost my awesome gloves and scarf so medyo naasar rin ako.
Lots of people got their stuff stolen too, like designer bags and money. Someone got a nintendo DS stolen, sadly ._.
Finally out by 1230, we hadto walk around 4 blocks looking for a cab to take us home. My other classmate had her shoes stolen and so she had to walk home barefoot in the snow. Her feet were purple and though miserable, drunk, she was. I guess that softened the blow XD
we finally got home adn died of exhaustion. But otherwise, it was ok =D i mean teh end sucked ass but the middle was great and the beggining was nice ^^
Happy birthday na lang kay karin! hahaha
posted at [8:34 PM]
HELL YEAR
What happened to me this week?
Yes alam kong marami akong utang na sulat sa aking mga kaibigan, pero seriously, the past MONTH has been hell.
And to top it all off, I got sick when I was supposed to catch up will all my work.
Just great.
Ok so it starts with UNIS-UN. I can deal with that totally. But the sad thing is, I have SATs teh next weekend, so stressed ako dun. I had NO time to prepare kasi hindi sinabi sa akin ng nanay ko na sa araw na yun ko kukunin, tapos kailangan ko pang alagaan ang mga taong nakitira sa bahay namin para sa conference.
Taking the SAT's itself was easy, pero i still think bumobo ako dito.
And the worst part is, nahawa ako sa cold ng tao sa harap ko.
And so, I suffered this week with a cold and a fever, with delerium on the side.
My mom was evil enough to send me to school witha fever (yes, i didnt stay home. I endured teh elements, a one-hour journey in the snow, waiting for busses and subway cars just to get to school and back, a 1-hour journey, if u will). and that just made my sickness worse.
I went home early though, because of the fever. And I went home early the next day too, (via cutting class) just to get out of school so I could go home and sleep. Yyes, I cut class so I can get recuperative (oooh seemingly big word!) rest.
Plus I had to get better so I could go to my friends party on friday. I told her I'd come.. so.. O_O
I even skipped my friend's play so I could go home to rest.
And yeah, taht's why my world has been fucked up these past 3 weeks.
posted at [8:12 PM]
7 Things by A. Rodriguez
Here is a letter my dad wrote in response to a letter written by an Atenean student. I find it quite amusing. I wonder, if people read this, will they be affected? Or will tehy turn the other cheek, as most of humankind does?
Will anyone from my generationa actually get what this means?
I wonder...
(Yes, one of these days I will incite a revolution for social reform, and all you elite shall tumble in my wake.)
7 Things
With the recent brouhaha regarding the open letter of the fine young leader, Harvey Keh, I realized I had seven reasons of my own that should have made me want to leave my country a long time ago.
- The betrayal of every positive gain we have made to liberate our marginalized and oppressed poor: from Bonifacio’s revolution to the liberation movements of the 70s to the first EDSA to the Local Government Code to new attempts at political and electoral reforms: These were flawed but positive attempts to reform our existing systems so that they are more fair and responsive to the oppressed. However, the elite always seem to manage to subvert these gains and make them work to their political and economic advantage.
- The widening and shameless gap between the rich and the poor: No matter how much our economy is supposed to have improved, and no matter how much our GNP grows, a vast number of people in peasant villages still have to go hungry 4 out of 12 months of the year while people in walled villages are able to consume 5 times the resources they need to live decent human lives.
- The fact that even the more enlightened and well meaning of the elite still think that there can be development without social justice: Although it is not bad and even good that much of our development work is focused on the charitable work of helping the poor build houses, acquire health care and good education, it is disturbing that even the well-meaning elite no longer ask why the poor cannot acquire these things for themselves. And none of them even begin to realize that perhaps the liberation of the poor from poverty begins with the brave decision to equitably share profit with the poor from whose productivity these profits are drawn—or that their lack of productivity is caused by the fact that we have alienated the poor from the resources that enable them to be creative and productive.
- The fact that politics has always been and continues to be the game of the elite: We always blame the poor electorate for the fact that only the corrupt and self-serving are voted into office. Hardly anyone realizes that the poor vote the way they do because the economic, social, political, and governance systems are built on a rationality that alienates them from expressing their own agenda and their own needs. They vote the way they do because the system gives them no real choices and they try to take as much advantage from the exploitative system as they can. To date, there are very few politicians who are real alternatives to traditional politics.
- The fact that it is the elite who continue to define the development agenda for the poor: The dreams and genuine aspirations for a just society of the marginalized are never considered in the shaping of this country. It is always the elite who define what the people should want and how they should live and what society they should build: whether this elite takes the voice of the government, self-serving politicians, eternally hungry corporations, well-meaning NGOs, or self-proclaimed revolutionary movements. This is the reason we can never rally the disempowered majority behind our programs. The poor are not empowered and the existing systems only use them as the recipients of our good will, as the factors to our production, and the supporters of our aspiration without accounting for their own dreams which are perhaps more legitimate than those imposed by our bourgeois sensibilities.
- The short-sightedness of the elite in our desire to consume believing that unabated consumption will bring about a good life: With our wasteful consumption, we destroy our world, use up non-renewable resources and take away precious resources from the poor. And no matter how obvious it is that this consumption is the cause of the suffering of the poor and the degradation of the environment, we continue as if we had every right to consume our way out of this world.
- Many of my students who do know better, who have had some of the best minds show them liberating alternatives, end up becoming the next generation of exploitative elite.
There are so many other reasons to list but these suffice to make anyone with a sense of love and responsibility for the hungry and the disempowered want to give up and pack up. But a person who is held captive to responsibility by their deepest humanity can never give up on the oppressed for the simple reason that no one can have an authentic human life while others are hungry and suffering. While I’m sure Harvey’s letter was mainly rhetorical, similar statements of surrender I have heard from others are mainly hidden declarations of disgust because the precious poor will not fall in with the social reformer’s agenda. For instance, that open letter from a very public, self-proclaimed servant of the poor stating his own good reasons for migrating. Well, there are so many reasons we should want to leave when we focus on our own travails and our own demands. But one has no right to give up when one focuses on the faces of those who demand justice and the simple right to a humane existence. I’m pretty sure Harvey won’t leave but to those others who have taken on this rhetorical call with seriousness, I say perhaps we should have enough of this mock heroic despair and focus on the actual work of liberation the first demand of which is the surrender of our own exploitative lifestyles.
There are so many reasons for leaving this country, but I have never felt that I have a right to dwell on them.
posted at [7:53 PM]
SAT HELL
THE SATs are basically one's entrance test to ALL the colleges in the US. The good thing is, you can re-take them. Bad thing? It's 6 hours of pain.
When did I take them? The WEEKEND after UNIS-UN. And when did I learn I had to take them that weekend? during UNIS-UN.
Yes, I realized that I was ill=prepared.
And though my mom could have told me earlier when I was taking teh test, I still couuld have studied.
And I realize how fucked up the ass I am. UP na lang akO!
I died.
adiós mis sueños de ir al ateneo.
Adiós.
posted at [7:48 PM]
UNIS UN
A detailed Account of UNIS-UN
So two weeks ago, we had UNIS-UN. What is UNIS-UN? It is basically students from all over the world coming to NY to have an assembly/conference like the UN has, in the general assemble and all. Our school, being the United Nations International School, was the main school involved. Aka it was mandatory attendance for all highschool students, except for the Tut1s (freshies. THeydidsomethingbad: they wrecked the music room and their whole year is in trouble O_O freshmen used to be able to go, but this year they were not).
It started on a Tuesday, for me (despite the actual event being on Thursday-Friday.) I hosted Japanese People XD they are really cute (attitude-wise) and i got along with them.Their names? Noriko and Kurumi. They gave me mad gifts too! (which made up for the fact that i got japanese girls instead of guys. lolz) They were from some random public school in yokohama. But hosting was so disorganized O_O nung tuesday, i had to pic up the people i was hosting, and i had to stay in school til 7 kasi galing p sla sa airport. They got there at 8 O_O and, i didnteven know i had to pick them up til that day.
On Wednesday, I brought them to school and they toured and stuff, they sat in my english class. Hehe. Two random Japanese dudes went too, they were nice. There was also a dinner that happened that day, to welcome the people from all over the world visiting for the conference. I sold tickets to the Neel Bagh Dance! (major dance at UNIS, after the first day of the conference!)
Puro Juniors and Seniors, mga people from Bahrain, India, france, London, china, everywhere (pero walang pinoy =/) And i hosted one more girl, named Laura. My stepbrother hosted her dapat pero binayaran ako para alagaan XD Laura is british, and tawag ni mommy sa kanya matrona, kasi nagpapahintay at mapilit sa gusto. She made me wait for her during the dance and took like 4 hours XD (exagg but it felt like it,i had to drag her out)
Thursday: UNIS-UN. SA harap ako and all I did was SAT math prep. Man, feeling ko talaga na bumobo ako dito XD And yeah, that’s all I did. I then chilled with adaeze after school in izza’s house, and then brought my people over to my house. We then prepared for the neel Bagh dance! (WHICH IS the biggest and best dance of the year, supposedly, kasi maraming tao NOT from UNIS who are going.) I’m part of the club nga XD and we raised around 4,000 usd. (7-10 per head with around 900 students, I’d say that’s pretty good XD). I even got my friend who never dances unless he’s drunk, to dance. That was a major victory on my part XD And I got conservative Japanese guys to dance. Hehehe ;)
We got home at around 12. i slept an average of 4 hours/night then O_O haaay
Friday: UNIs-UN part two. Izza’s birthday rin!!
So I was in front with Ben, listening to various speakers talk about Global Warming. The techie-oriented people were in the broadcast booth, broadcasting the conference to other people around the world to be able to partake in this experience. They were lucky because they didn’t have to listen. And they saw everyone from their POV, (theybroadcasted the numerous participants who fell asleep, including teachers!)Lolz (not that anyone wanted to knw XD) Then we chilled at Izza’s house after because Izza had food.
We went back to school after, to fetch the Japanese people I was hosting along with the Japanese people Yasmine was hosting. We went to Dylan’s candy bar, and died of exhaustion
The next day (SAtudray) I couldn’t rest because I had to take my Japanese people out. I basically just brought them to times square and Union square, where they shopped and I died of exhaustion.
And Sunday they left XD
Wow, fun and exhausting XD I can't wait for next year. but this time, I refuse to host people.
posted at [7:42 PM]
SKI TRIP CHORVA
Here is a pretty detailed account of my ski trip XD and I shall withhold information regarding my supposedly lawless exploits. LOL.
Lawless in waht country? Eh? I thought this was the free world!?! LOL
OK so here is what happened:
DAY 1 (friday)
5 hour bus trip up to vermont. 3 states away!I left at friday, around 2pm. I got to the MOTEL (omfg motel) at around 7-ish pm. maybe a little earlier. It was a long trip nakakangawit ang haba ng drive.
And IT WS SNOWING! Ive never seen so much snow! THere was like, 4 inches! I died and went to white-snow paradise! I played like a little kid with snow angels and everyhting!
And I was in 10-degree weather wearing only a long-sleeved shirt, playing in wet white snow. I almost did die XD but my friends were quite sympathetic.
Thankfully no one on the trip (there were around 100 kids from 1st to fourth year there) saw me. Except for my friends.
hehehe.
There was a hot-tub and a pool tooo. There was an outdoor hottub and an indoor one. But the pool froze over but the hottub outside was nice ^^ You know those hot-tub thingys sa anime where its snowing and people still are in teh hot tub?? Parang ganun. except the tub was small and the sex wasnt seperated. And, it was quite crowded. But the snow felt so nice since we were in the hot tub but there was snow around us! Hehehehe.
That night, friday (after the omfg snow and omfg hottub experience) I tried sleeping over in my friend's room. I almost got suspended O_O Kasi there were four in a room. ANd I was with people I did not know. batchmate ko pero hindi ko sila close, gets? And then there were only 2 beds! (talk about a cheeaaap motel omfg) and I had to share a bed, so I decided to sneak into my friends room at like 10 at night and spend the night there. Little did I know, they actually checked the attendance of people in their rooms. When they went to check my room, I wasn't there. They looked in my friends room so I had to hide sa bthroom. BIG MISTAKE! They said they'd call my parents and so i was forced to come out. Ayun, I explained myself (puro bullshit) and the dean of discipline was like, ok but don't do it again (you know how I talk my way out of things! It works, plus I'm much more polite and eloquent when I get in trouble than anyone could ever think possible.)
The dean of discipline is so dumb though. All he does is fake being nice so you'll admit to your crimes and misdemeanors then punishes you after. Not taht I was punished since I was such a sweet little girl who faked innocence with such seamless finess. LOL
DAY 2 (saturday)
The next day, I had a snowboarding lesson. I died though ^^ i almsot broke my tailbone. ok no. but it hurts like mad. I rode the lift up annd kept trying to snowboard down, pero i dont know how to turn, so to stop, i fell. Eh palagi akong nagpapanic! sO ayun, I DIED XD Pero it was so much fun and my body hurt like mad (even 2 days after). Do you know the feeling of swimming for a whole day and then running around in the beach aftr? Ganun except much worse for me. PLUS i was snowboarding in like 10 degree weather. My gloves froze over!
I also may have done illegal thingys with this kid in our grade (jamal) who is known for doing illegal things XD Nothing serious, but it was funny.
The sad thing is, someone actually got suspended that day. There was a senior called stephan who had a friend come over from god-knows-where and that friend brought alcohol. They filled the tub with ice and kept the alcohol there. But then someone smoked marijuana in the room and the dean smelled it so he came in and saw the beer. Long story short, that kid was suspended and everyone had to hide whatever illegal thingys they were doing. And that kid's parents are suing the school, since the kid is mad-rich and the parents think he's innocent since it wasnt him who brought in the alcohol. And there is a rumor going around na everyone sa ski trip will get a drug test O_O ang weird! hahaha
pero at least i didn't do coke, heroin and ecstacy on the trip, (as customary on those trips. Oh america, must you degrade my generation?)
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DAY 3( SUNDAY)
The roommates of the person who were suspended (aka ben, my arrogant friend, and some other 2 kids) couldnt ski kasi punishment nila un for not telling the dean about the alcohol. Andaya pero at least it wasnt serious, or us!
Today I tried snowboarding down a big mountain. BIG MISTAKE! kasi i was quite wobbly from the fatigue of the day and the cold. PLUS I got an anxiety attack, hence the wooziness set in, and I fell. I couldnt even get back up. So I had to ask someone to call ski patrol. They used a sled to bring me down, (dragged by like 1 dude on skis) and so un XD I actually had fun skiing down the toboggen thingy. i let my friends down since I didn't finish but i don't care! And omg my friend yazmine sprained her wrist. she's getting it xrayed tomorrow
And on so we headed home at around 4. We stopped at mcdonalds to eat and everything was overpriced. THe thing is, everyone talked about me in a very obvious manner during the stop-over. THe kid I done shit with, named *****, kept on giving me funny looks. Other kids in my grade kept looking at me funny and whispering to each other while talking about me. And as I leave the restaurant, ***** goes heeeeeeyyyy and i raise my eyebrows at him. but they the other kids he's with keep looking at me weird. it was quite annoying!
ANd I get home t 10, sleep at 12 and wish my body didnt really hurt as much as it did. Hehehe.
BTW, i dislike nick right now. ok so you know how i hate paul right, since he is creepy and arrogant? Kasi nung recess, he told paul something insulting about me, which i would have laughed off if i knew what it was about.
Nick really told paul something about me and yarz falling, and i thought he said something about my panic attack and i didnt want paul, of all people since he is quite insensitive, to know about my panic attack and almost fainting since it would be embarrasing and then i got so mad, i cried O_O
And then I bitched to my stepbrother about the trip, (kasi he hasn't been to school in a month kasi of the dean XD plus, he needs to do so much detention that he doesn't even want to bother.) We bonded while i made him tsismis. He also made me tsismis XD It was so funny too. The only reason he talks to me is for tsismis, parang babae XD
Hence my exploits are revealed, though some details are disclosed from public view. HAHAHA
Good luck leal!
posted at [7:40 PM]
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Thursday, February 01, 2007
How EMO art thou?
Lol, stolen from jek (randomly)
[<3] I love tight jeans.
[<3] Music is my life.
[<3] I write poetry/song lyrics.
[<3] My hair covers part of my face.
[<3] I wear band & punky shirts.
[ ] I know who Mickey Avalon is.
[ ] I wear converses[chucktaylor]. (they are uncomfy XD)
[ ] I wear vans. (Can't afford vans XD)
[ ] I have made a YouTube video.
{<3] I wear lots of eyeliner.[black!]
[ ] I have my lip peirced.
[<3] I listen to Saves The Day,Chiodos, Thursdayand/or Gym Class Heroes. (omfg the gym class heroes are NOT emo!)
[<3] I'm in a band.
[ ] My AIM screen name has x's in it. (Um. Okay?)
[<3] I understand that My Chemical Romance is not emo. (more screamo)
[<3] I also understand that Green Dayis not emo.
[<3I know what mosh means.
[<3] I sit in corners often. (OMFG yes, I LOVE CORNERS XD Just cuz i liked cramped spaces)
[ ] I dislike MTV.
[ ] I take pictures of myself a lot.
[ ] ...especially ones where you can'tsee mywhole face.
[<3] I am lost without an mp3/cdplayer/iPOD.
[<3] I know that emo is not just a stereotype. (state of mind lol)
[ ] I could not live without my hairstraightener. (Hair already too strait T_T)
[ ] I have thick rimmed glasses.
[<3] I'm bi/gay.
[<3] I have no issue with bi/gay people.
[<3] I hate the president. (with a passion like no one understands)
[ ] I have/had a mohawk.
[<3] I have worn/wear black nailpolish.
[ ] I hate my parents. (oh contraire, I hate YOUR parents XD Oh snap, yo mama!)
[ ] I hate where i live.
[<3] I try to go to as many concerts as possible.
[<3] Black is a great color. (despite it being the absence of color)
[<3] Right now I am listening to music.
[ ] I know what hxc and sxe means.
[ ] I am straight edge. (que razor what?)
[ ] Friendster=Love
[<3] Hot Topic doesn't scare me. (I scare it O_O)
[ ] Most of my friends don't go to my school.
[<3] I have worn/wear studded belts.
[<3] I have had a body part signed by aband.
[<3]I've cut before. (hair, bangs, your momma? lol)
[<3] I've cried while listening to Dashboard Confessional. (sad to say)
[<3] I have kissed another guy. (wait, im a girl, thats ok right?)
[<3] I have worn girls jeans. (I AM a girl :|)
[<3]You have/had dyed your hair black. (purple, red, yellow, the works XD)
[<3] Your closet is mostly filled with black or darkclothes.
[<3] You cry a lot. (only because of sad movies tho O_O and i watch movies like mad!)
[<3] You write on yourself. (and my jeans, shirts, my friends, lol.)
[<3] You have been called emo before. (specifically an EMO nun! not by choice tho)
[<3]>
hehehe, fun survey, made me realize I'm emo
cept I don't cut myself and whine to the world.
Because people whine about me, not the other way around.
I get mad, and angry
and I get bitchy too
Lol, not emo enough, sorry lah!
posted at [5:31 PM]
3-penny
Lol, The jordanian slut I have to act with got the slutty part (which I wanted because it had SHORT vulgar lines) but whatever, she can't act. And I can't jeopardize myy grade because of her bad acting. At least I know how to kinda play out of my character. Here goes!
I seriously think dumb people should die. (or at least realize that they are dumb therefore inferior to those who know better. And when say dumb, i mean airheads. I dont mean those with a low IQ. The insensitive, obnoxious group is who I am targeting, no matter how politically incorrect I am)
Polly: Oh Mac, there you are! Why do you turn away mac? it's your polly, it's your wife.
Oh mac, in prison! Why didnt you ride across highgate heath? You told me you wouldnt see those women anymore. I knew what they'd do to you but I didn't say anything because I believed you. Mac, not one kind look? Think what your poor polly must be feeling seeing you in this condition!
What does this mean Mac, who on earth is that? You might as well tell her who I am. Tell her I'm your wife, will you. Aren't I your wife? Look at me. Tell me, aren't I your wife?
Say something Mac! Aren't I your wife? Haven't I done everything for you? I was innocent when I married, you know that. Why, you even put me in charge of the gang. I've done everything.
the way we arranged and jake wantsme to tell you that he...
naturally the wife has...
.. the wife deserves some preferences, or at least the appearance of it my dear. All this fuss and bother will drive the poor man mad!
posted at [5:21 PM]
I PASSED UP BIATCH!
I PASSED UP~! Conceited? Very much so. And Diliman pa. I expect to get much hate mail for this but I don't care. You know why? Because I passed UP. And Hah, I passed UP =D
BA Comparative Literature, Diliman Campus.
Thanks for all those who congratulated me and for Inez for telling me the fabulous news.
(Sorry for the extra mean-ness I am PMS-ing like mad. I have yelled at three people this week and told around five people to die/go fuck themselves)
But I doubt I'll go to UP. Both my parents would object (and oo nga, ateneo parin ako). Plus I still have another year and a half here. And if life has taught me anything, it's that running away is bad. I can't just run away from here (despite the mad homesickness I feel, especially when I read about all the fun I'm missing back home. Not that I'm without fun here. I have a ski trip coming up and a fabulous sleepover planned at my friends house. Plus I finally got to play Wii). I have to finish what I started, so I doubt I'll be cutting my time here short to go to college early ^^;
But still, I love the bragging rights of beasting 70,000 people at UP!
congrats: Andie, Faggy, Abbi, Celine, Abbi, Mongy, Mao! (if I miss anyone, tell me XD)
And for all those who didn't pass, you have my condolences. Sorry if this makes you feel bad (seriously) and I know you guys'll be great in whatever you do <3
posted at [5:17 PM]
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
I hate you, world
In my theater arts class, we are reading brecht's play ""the three-penny opera"".
We have to do a mini-play where we seperate the character from the actor. Aka I have to act and I was like shit, i fucking hate acting. And then I am paired with this slutty bitch (the jordanian whore, who was also the girl leading the human rights thing) who pushed to play the slutty girl in our scene. God hates me? No, Mr. Cisek kinda does ;) (love-hate thing going on, hehe)
Nick (as I rant to him about the injustice of being paired with her as we chill in dunkin donuts after school) says, "well its too much like her for it to be brecht. She can never stop being a slut so she'd be a better Lucy (name of character)" I hugged him then kasi totoo nga! plus she never plays out of her personality kasi she's dumb and too much of a whore to notice ^^
I play the girl-next door who is blind and naive. Its not me, but thats the point of the brecht play! DO NOT BE YOU! When asked by Mr. Cisek what I would do when I meet that character, I said I would hit her. And I would! Because she is really a helpless naive damsel in distress. Eh yun ung sinisigawan ko sa mga anime na pinapanuod ko way back in the day. Hehehe. And I was pissed at that whore kasi she is an airhead. So I also meant I would hit her.
Mr. cisek asked if I ever hit a girl and I was like yes. He was shocked and said, Wow, I didn't expect that from you! QUite amusing ^^ He was also the one who was shocked that I swear like mad.
Last rant: I hate paul (trinidadian kid) kasi I supported a bakesale of the aids awareness club. Then he was like, buy from the homeless help club. And I was like, ok maybe. But I'd rather support the aids awareness club because it is a global cause promoting the welfare of poor children who deserve a chance at life. Plus the homeless people in NY are mean (and from my ranting, u know XD) tapos he yelled at me about being like the white beaurocrats in america (did I mention he doesnt know how to say beaurocrat. he was screaming at me about something he cant pronounce let alone fathom that I was quite pissed off). I mean I got so mad kasi naman diba what do I care? I mean I have my own countries problems to worry about and the fact that he was yelling really drove me over the edge. So I screamed, I lived in a fucking third world country you retard, you should think about how well-off the homeless in new york already are. Plus you cant even pronounce beaurocrat because you are ignorant and quite arrogant. You can be racist adn yell at people if you are well-educated about teh topic and want to prove a point. But you can't be taht dumb and yell about beaurocrats and things you can't even pronounce.
Wow I am bitchy! I think its PMS XD Or its been a long week. I have been yelling at so many people, its so funny. ANdami kong rant diba? Its been building up. PLus I was bitten by a mosquito muse so yay
posted at [9:14 PM]
If you think Ice Cream is good, try contemplating the forms!
I have just had a literary eureka moment. Or more like five. I have been bitten by a mosquito muse.
And it feels good.
a) I've been seeing shadows fall outside my math window. We're on the fifth floor, and around us is the outside-track. I remember falling bodies. I know what my first book will be about! It shall be about my school experience, named: (ay wait secret pala! Wait til im published ;) yasmine inspired the title).
b) during english, my teacher (ms downey, not Mr Cisek. They switched. Mr cisek is still my theater arts teacher though) made us read a poem. I knew she was raped. (or that he raped her. I forgot) And my classmates were quite amused. a.k.a "where'd that come from?" ANd I explained, that the guy in the poem was saying sorry for eating her cold plums which she was saving for later. She was sleeping and he couldnt wait for morning blah blah and I was like, isn't that so rape? (or just like every other rape poem I've read anyway) and my classmates were so amazed that I came about that conclusion so quickly. And andrew said, "Or he could have jsut stolen her plums"
And I thought, oh snap. He may be right (but still XD I was right!)
THen I was like, well O_O (akala nila inaral ko dati sa 'pinas)
c) I'm doing fenomenal in spanish despite my crappy teacher. And I quote: "Leal, is something wrong? You are doing evertyhign perfectly!"
tHE Reason: the dumb monggolian kid I always HAD TO sit next to pissed me off so much that i told him he's a fucker and he deserves to die (in the hall for all to see. he didnt get it though) and i sat away from him (teacher always forced me to sit next to him). I had to leard how to say: "I dont want to sit next to that fucker, he deseres to die. And he disrupts my concentration during spanish" in spanish. No deseo sentarme al lado de ese fucker, él los deseres a morir. Y él interrumpe mi concentración durante español. And I did so much better kasi he didnt bug. I also got a 6+ (which is an A+) in my theater arts paper about the mask thing. Mr cisek even wants a copy since he said it was so informative. Hehehe.
Also, one of my exam essays got a 6+! Pero the rest got a B lang so B na lang ang grade ko. THe others were my downfall O_O we are done wiht the republic na pala tho, and I am eager to get on to another kind of writing style. Dialogues are confusing without the names.
But who cares, really? it will all be in my book and people will actually buy it. One of these days. Hehehe. So yay to me, all those who deserve to die will. But I have to stop trying to play God. it is quite creepy XD
posted at [9:04 PM]
Snow!
I've finally seen snow XD It has eluded me for quite some time now, but I have finally seen it! (Kasi the week I was back, I saw snow for the first time, pero it snowed for like 5 minutes lang, so I didnt get to run in it) and then this week, on the last day of school (friday) I see it XD I was waiting for my bus and it was snowing XD The flakes were so elegant and fine and the trees and plants were dusted so nicely XD ANd when I stepped in the snow, I left this awesome footprint. I was wearing my awesome shoes which had the skull-and-crossbone bottom eh.
Just had to rant =D
posted at [9:02 PM]
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Monday, December 18, 2006
I wish...
You'd think that having all this free time because of the break in between exams has been good
It hasn't, at all.
Especially since I've just been rotting away in my room.
Someone once said that the cause of all plagues was man rotting in his own filth.
I strongly agree.
I feel as though my brain is rotting away into nothingness.
I can't write as well as I used to. Well, I don't think I've ever written well before.
Now I feel as though my poetic lisense, my eloquence and skills at weaving words is stifled by time.
There is no time to do anything anymore.
And as I read what I wrote before, compare it to what I write now, read my friends stories (via the creative writing blog my old elective has) I wish I could go back to those good old days.
I may have had less to write about, but at least I wrote well.
Now I can't write for shit. My grades add an exclamation point to this statement.
Because in my heart, I know that after all this is done, I won't be able to write any better or more meaningfully than I wrote before.
That thought just scares me
and what scares me more is that I think its true
posted at [7:12 PM]
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
| You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!
English | | 100% | Psychology | | 100% | Sociology | | 100% | Anthropology | | 92% | Philosophy | | 83% | Theater | | 83% | Journalism | | 83% | Linguistics | | 83% | Art | | 75% | Dance | | 67% | Mathematics | | 33% | Biology | | 17% | Engineering | | 17% | Chemistry | | 8% |
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Lol I think that's pretty accurate ^^ I wanna major in philo/literature/theater (not acting though!)
maybe... ;) then I'll start my own NGO!
LAst exam: Biology. It hurt my hand! We had to answer 3 chapters worth of questions and write a shitload of stuff. And for English we had a commentary and an essay, bot of which i suck at. I really am bad at english.
anywhere. I should not be in higher english!
Speaking of English, have a paper to rewrite XD
and I have a research commission for Theater Arts, and a re-write for philosophy, and another essay.
Total=4 essays over the break. Perfect. And I only get less than 2 weeks at home =/
But at least makakauwi na rin ako XD
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Today I went to bryant park and union square. Puro tiangge and my mom gave me money so it made me happy (but as I have learned in Philosophy, it is a false happyness that only detters us from the real good)
And then this dude (totally random punk guy) goes to me and says: "you're missing Jesus".(random NY ppl shout at other random ppl kasi theyr hostile XD)
Natawa naman ako! At first, I thought, why did he just fly by or something? I told my friends, zoe and yarz abotu it (they were a few feet ahead of me) and they were like, "omg ur the most Christian of all of us! go back there and tell that dude u wanna be a nun"! I was about to flash my crucifix/scapular at him, but I wasnt wearing one. I wanted to though XD
This event, reminded me of yet another of my NY freaky experiences.
Dati kasi I was in times square with Yarz coming home from Jersey (the closer u get to times square, the mroe hostile) and it was crowded and then i cut in front of someone pero almost bump into this other guy and this dude HISSES AT ME XD and im like, "fuck you asshole!"
really loudly.
hehe
And yet another incidend (still in tiems square)involved another hostile Newyorker. It was with my mom, near toysRus.
This dude was like, go home tourists, new york sucks, so why bother coming here and making it suckier for real newyorkers!
and there are random homeless people, who arent at all like our homeless people who u pity and actually feel sympathy towards.
These newyork homeless ppl are HOSTILE XD and one even threw breadcrumbz at zoe once,! And the pidgeons could have killed her
And so many people stare at other ppl, shamelessly. As in O_O walang hiyang staring, kakaasar!
Which led to the discussion of me and my dad about consumerism:
Dad: baka talagang the pursuit of self-interested consumerism kills your soul
Dad: yan ang dapat nilang matutunan
Leal: sabi ko sau eh, mindless consumerism
Leal: Pero its funny rin kasi so many ppl are radical here, and anti-bush, pro-peace
Leal: pero peace to each other is not an option
Dad: America= Consumerism
Dad: they love humanity but not each other
Leal: indeed
But not all Americans suck. My friends here are pretty cool. They've been americanized but they are still caring, despite what the culture promotes.
And about teh mindless consumerism, it's because America does not have to deal with poverty as much as other countries. They are bored, hence they shop (its something to do!) and play videogames. Lol.
Speaking of which, I want a nintendo Wii, but its 600$ (30kphp) so scrw that shit!
I'd rather bask in the sun with my brother and teach him to fetch ;)
I wanna go homeeeee!!!
posted at [5:02 PM]
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Friday, December 15, 2006
Seven Deadly Sins test XD
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with?
My mom. Forgot with what though
2. What is your weapon of choice?
My cunning and yo mommah XD
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
definately. I do almost every hour (but then they complain that guys can't hit girls, but hit me back anyway, because I don't count, then I hit them back XD It goes on for ages)
4. How about of the same sex?
definately XD but depends who and how hards. You can be alot more brutal with guys.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
Izza, I said I'd set a Jihad against taco and she got offended, but its all good now XD (she didnt know my stepbros last name is jihad)
6. What is your pet peeve?
corners have to be exactly 90 degrees, all around
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
keeps grudges, always T_T its a bad habit i try to delete from my database XD
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
exercise? but i dont really care XD
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?
11 PM
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
kuya luis, my brother-cousin
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
"I didn't study because I know i'll fail XD"
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)?
am right now
6. When was the last time you got a good workout?
years ago XD or like, 5 months, since hte philippines
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
none, I was late even before the alarm rang
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
Chai tea frap!
2. Meat eater?
hell yes
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
maybe.. can't remember? =D
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
haha no
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
you're funny. seriously no
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
sweet and salty <3>
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"?
O_O scary
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
none
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?
noooone and lets keep it that way
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
hehe you're funny O_O
4. Have you "done it"?
hahaha! hilarious!
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
eyes and face-area
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
haha no XD wait do my friends count? ;)
7. Have you ever been tested for an STD or pregnancy?
NO!
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?
itlog
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?
Morning glory! OMFG paper stars *drools
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
give half to an NGO then invest the rest
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?
rich, cuz I will help the world with the money ;)
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
no
6. Have you ever stolen anything?
nope
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
4 gig
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?
been written about in a newspaper, bitch!
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
lived to tell my tale XD matured ok (parang wine XD)
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
Make the world a better place, make my NGO successful and actually make a difference
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
I dont believe in contests ;)
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
nope
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
maybe ;)
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?
survived a biology test, 3 chapters. damn
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
tokidoki bag, my friends brains, my other friends amazing skills at language.. etc
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spouses" with?
whoever marrys changming, if i dont marry him first ;)
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
i'd be me ^^
4. Have you ever been cheated on?
hellz no XD
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
my fat O_O
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
brains, photograpic memory,organization
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?
no
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
anger
posted at [7:16 PM]
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