Monday, December 18, 2006
I wish...
You'd think that having all this free time because of the break in between exams has been good
It hasn't, at all.
Especially since I've just been rotting away in my room.
Someone once said that the cause of all plagues was man rotting in his own filth.
I strongly agree.
I feel as though my brain is rotting away into nothingness.
I can't write as well as I used to. Well, I don't think I've ever written well before.
Now I feel as though my poetic lisense, my eloquence and skills at weaving words is stifled by time.
There is no time to do anything anymore.
And as I read what I wrote before, compare it to what I write now, read my friends stories (via the creative writing blog my old elective has) I wish I could go back to those good old days.
I may have had less to write about, but at least I wrote well.
Now I can't write for shit. My grades add an exclamation point to this statement.
Because in my heart, I know that after all this is done, I won't be able to write any better or more meaningfully than I wrote before.
That thought just scares me
and what scares me more is that I think its true
posted at [7:12 PM]
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